In a February 1949 journal entry,
Mother Teresa wrote: “I walked and walked till my legs and my arms
ached—then the temptation grew strong. . . . You have only to say
the word and all that will be yours again. . . . This is the dark
night of the birth of the society.”
It has been suggested that these words
mark the beginning of Mother Teresa's “Dark Night.” In 1947,
Mother Teresa received permission to leave her order and move to the
slums of Calcutta to set up a school. Sometime in 1948 she took to
the streets tending to the sick, the poor and the dying. In the
beginning of 1949 she was joined in this effort by a group of young
women. Together they laid the foundation for a new religious
community that would help the "poorest among the poor". By
February 1949 Mother Teresa's “Dark Night” had begun.
Transiting Pluto was in Leo in her 8th
house corresponding to a time in which she was undergoing an
accelerated development of her evolutionary intention and desire,
which, with natal Pluto in Gemini in the 7th House, was to open up to
others and listen to them in order to become aware of their needs,
values and points of view so that she could readjust her own
perspective and point of view making it more inclusive of others and
their beliefs. This was a period in her life in which past patterns
and associations which influenced and shaped her beliefs, values and
behavior needed to be purged in order for new patterns and
associations to take their place. All outmoded emotional,
intellectual, physical and spiritual behavior and orientation needed
to be eliminated at this time. In addition, all cumulative negative
karma from this life and past lives needed to be purged and positive
karma brought to completion so she would be free to move forward.
This was an intense process requiring a great deal of faith as new
impulses surfaced into her consciousness from the depths of her soul.
At the same time, her purpose in life was undergoing a major change
and new personal capacities and possibilities were surfacing from the
depths of her soul. Altogether this a period in her life in which
she experienced intense highs and extreme lows and dark moods as well
as a loss of meaning and significance.
When Mother Teresa took to the streets,
the transiting North Node was in Taurus in her 5th House and the
South Node in Scorpio in her 11th House. As with Pluto in the 8th
House, the South Node transiting the 11th is another sign that the
evolutionary pace is in an accelerated mode. At this time Mother
Teresa's soul had a need and desire to liberate itself from the past
so that rapid growth could occur. New and potentially radical
thoughts and impulses were starting to emerge into her consciousness.
Outmoded patterns from the past needed to be eliminated and all
negative karma purged and positive karma completed so she could go
forward. With the NN transiting her 5th house, it was time to
reformulate her purpose in life. In order to do so, she would have
to eliminate any preconceived ideas she had regarding her life
purpose and destiny and follow the inner creative urges she was
feeling within. Her soul had a desire to transform her existing value
systems which were what gave her meaning in life. Again, this is
symbolic of a time when all past influences need to come to and end
so they can be replaced by something new. Any resistence to this
desire promotes psychological, karmic and evolutionary problems and
blockages. Once these blockages are removed, a new state of personal
vitality and well being will occur.
As we can see, 1948 was a critical time
in the soul's evolution. A time to wrap up the past in order to move
forward in the direction of Pluto's Polarity Point, Sagittarius in
the 1st House, which is to learn how to strike out on her own and
find the answers to her metaphysical, philosophical and cosmological
questions from within herself using her intuition. Working with the
sick, dying and poor in the slums of Calcutta, while feeling as
though she had been abandoned by God, would enable her to initiate a
self-motivated direction in life outside of her previous relationship
with God, Jesus and the Catholic Church, in order to find a belief
system that resonated with her soul on an intuitive level. In the
process she would come to develop an awareness that truth is relative
and that there are many paths leading to the same truth.
In March 1948 transiting Pluto in Leo
the 8th formed a semi-sextile with natal Mars in Virgo in the 9th
House. At the same time transiting Mars in Virgo was crossing over
from Mother Teresa's 8th house into the 9th house and forming a
conjunction with her natal Mars in Virgo in the 9th house. This
signals a time in which she would have to actively confront any
limitations in her existing belief system or philosophical principles
and convictions through self-examination. By learning to look within
herself for intuitive guidance she would be able to experience
“visions” about the nature of her future. Transiting Mars was
forming a semi-sextile with natal Neptune in Cancer in the 7th House
activating a transcendent impulse to surrender and recognize that her
soul is just a small part of the greater whole through all of the
emotional relationships she was initiating with the sick and dying
people in the slums of Calcutta. Transiting Mars was square her Moon
conjunct her NN in Cancer in her 5th house indicating that she was
experiencing a great deal of emotional tension in regard to
activating her new special purpose in life. In addition, transiting
Pluto in the 8th house was forming a semi-square to her natal Pluto
in the 7th House indicating this was an intense time in which her
soul was trying to purge past karma and eliminate her outmoded
beliefs and patterns through the many relationships she was now
forming in Calcutta. Jupiter was conjunct her Asc in Sagittarius
opposition Natal Pluto in Gemini in the 7th house signifying a need
and desire to let intuition be her guide as she implemented her new
goals, ideas and direction in life.
In her journal in February 1949 the
first evidence that she was experiencing a “Dark Night” appears
in writing (see above). From January 24th – Feb 11th 1949, the
Transiting North node was inconjunct natal Mercury in Virgo in her
9th House and the Transiting SN semi-sextile natal Mercury. On Feb
12th 1949 Pluto formed a semi-square with natal Mercury as well. In
addition, transiting Mars in Pisces was forming a conjunction with
her 3rd House cusp. At this time there was a need and desire to
expand her mental horizons and eliminate outmoded thinking patterns
and opinions as well as to let new ones form. In order to help her
think things through she started expressing her innermost thoughts
and ideas regarding the spiritual darkness she was experiencing in
her journal and letters. The transitng North Node was sesiquadrate
natal Mars in Virgo in the 9th House while the transiting South Node
was semi-square natal Mars indicating this was a difficult time in
which obstacles due to her past beliefs were preventing her from
changing and adapting to new and different beliefs or situations. At
this point, many of her issues and problems related to her beliefs
were irresolvable and she had to learn to develop the patience and
persistance needed in order to learn to live and cope with them. On
one had she needed to act on her instinctual desire to learn to trust
her intuition and allow it to guide her, and at the same time past
beliefs were creating obstacles. The transiting North node began to
form a sextile to natal Pluto at this time while the South Node
formed a trine to natal Pluto in the 7th House helping her with her
intention to open up to others and listen to them in order to become
aware of their needs, values and points of view. This would help her
readjust her own perspective so that it would become more inclusive
of other beliefs and viewpoints. It seems that although she was able
to do this in regard to accepting that there is more than one path to
God or religious belief system, at this point she was only able to
apply that idea to other people and not to herself as her past
conditioning still had a powerful grip on her.
“Soon after she entered this work on
the streets of Calcutta, Jesus took himself away from her. Her only
spiritual respite happened in 1958 when Pope Pius XII died. Teresa
prayed to the late Pope for a "proof that God is pleased with
the Society [of the Missionaries of Charity]." For five weeks
the darkness lifted, then she entered "in the tunnel" once
again, and the absence never abated.” Pius XII died on October 9,
1958.
At this time the transiting North Node
was in Mother Teresa's 10th House and the South node in her 4th
House. Overall, this was a time which would induce inner and outer
circumstances and events which would make it necessary for Mother
Teresa to examine the basis of her emotional securities,
dependencies, feelings, moods and self image. An old cycle was coming
to an end. Self-reflection and contemplation was needed in order for
her to gain an understanding of why her life had come together the
way it had. This knowledge would be needed in order for her to
eliminate old and stagnant emotional, intellectual, physical and
spiritual patterns which were blocking growth. Pluto had been
conjunct her natal Sun in Virgo in the 8th house August 7, 1958
through Oct 9th 1958 - the day Pius passed away. Pius had been
strongly tied to her “special purpose” which was to serve the
sick and dying. He enabled it by giving her permission to to start
the diocesan congregation that would become the Missionaries of
Charity in 1950. It seems that Pluto conjuncting her Sun in August
was the beginning of a change related to her purpose – that change
being the passing of Pope Pius the same day Pluto passed from being
in this conjunction. From August 25, 1958 through Nov 26th 1958, the
transiting North Node in Libra in her 10th House was inconjunct her
natal North Node in Taurus in the 5th House. The transiting South
Node in Aries in her 4th house was semi-sextile her North Node. This
period encompasses the time preceding the passing of Pius and the
five weeks in which her darkness temporarily passed. With the
transiting nodes in the 10th/4th house, this was a time in which a
total redefinition of all outmoded structures in her life needed to
take place in order for a new phase or cycle to begin. Inner
emotional structures and patterns from the past needed to be
eliminated at this time, as well as past emotional dependencies. The
Pius years were to come to an end and a new chapter was to begin.
On Oct 9th 1958, the day in which Pope
Pius passed on, transiting Venus in Libra in her 9th house was
inconjunct her natal Saturn in Taurus in her 4th house. This is an
interesting transit as the inconjunct brings about crisis in order to
induce humility and introspection. Saturn symbolizes the Pope, an
external authority, whom due to her religious beliefs, she prayed to,
asking for a sign that would bring clarity rather than confusion in
regard to her sociological role. The following day Venus formed a
sesiquadrate to her natal North Node in Taurus in the 5th house
indicating she would have to learn to live with and cope with issues
and problems related to her soul's current intention to reformulate
her purpose in life by eliminating any preconceived ideas she had in
regard to her purpose and destiny. In addition she would now be
forming new relationships with herself and others in order to
transform her existing value systems which were what gave meaning to
her life. Up until the end of November, Venus formed 41 different
aspects to planets in her natal chart aspecting every one of them.
This is a sign that her values and relationships were changing in
every aspect of her life and conciousness during this five week
period in which her darkess went away. Venus also formed a
conjunction with her 10th House cusp on Oct 18th indicating that any
outmode values needed to go now as a new phase or cycle was
beginning. On November 26th, 1958, the transiting nodes in the 10th
and 4th houses both formed squares with her natal Uranus in Capricorn
in her 1st House. This pretty much coincided with the return of her
“Dark Hour” in which she once again experienced the trauma of
being separated from a God who she felt had abandoned her. The
transiting nodes were triggering traumatic memories from past
incarnations in which she was physically, psychologically or
karmically blocked from achieving her special destiny. There are
memories of not having been able to do everything she she felt she
could do. Mother Teresa had a superhuman complex that needed to be
balanced out by re-aligning her ego and learning to integrate her
leadership abilities with the system as it was currently defined. In
addition, there was mental trauma due to the loss of a partner – in
Mother Teresa's case, this would be Jesus who “left her” again.
She needed him to validate her and what she was doing, but he was
“gone.”
This darkness prevaded Mother Teresa's
consciousness into the early 1960s. On April 11, 1961 she wrote, “I
Have Come to Love the Darkness.” The torment expressed in her
letters up to this point gave way to an inner peace and joy.
Although Mother Teresa would be aware of the darkness up until her
dying day, she had come to accept and embrace it.
On Dec 7th 1960 the transiting nodes
moved into her 8th (NN) and 2nd (SN) houses. This signaled a time in
which she would begin to experience metamorphosis in her value system
and in regard to how she relates to herself and others. It was the
beginning of time in which she would confront areas within herself
that were stagnated and non-growth oriented. The transiting NN was
semi-sextile natal Venus and the transiting SN was inconjunct natal
Venus. Natal Venus is in Leo in the 8th House and is the natal North
Node Ruler which symbolizes mother Teresa's approach to her intimate
relationships and intimate partner with whom her deepest sense of
security is linked. This partner is Jesus whom she felt had abandoned
her. It was now time for her feelings in regard to this relationship
to change. It was a time in which she was gaining clarification in
regard to her purpose and learning to accept her personal limitations
which she felt were having to keep moving on helping others without
her companion Jesus there to validate her efforts.
On April 11th 1961, when Mother Teresa
wrote that she had come to love the darkness, transiting Uranus was
forming a square to the natal nodes. This was bringing about an
opportunity to break free from the pull of the South Node in Scorpio
in the 11th House and allow her to liberate herself from memories of
past life trauma related to issues of loss and abandonment and begin
to use her intuition to find the answers to her metaphysical,
philosophical and cosmological questions from within herself and find
her own meaning from within. Transiting Pluto was conjunct her natal
Sun in the 8th house promoting a reformulation of her purpose in
life. In addition it was promoting the death of outmoded emotional,
intellectual, physical and spiritual behavior patterns and
orientation, as well as the purging of any remaining negative karma.
Pluto was trine Saturn in Taurus in the 4th house prompting her to
establish her own authority within society based on her own internal
values while minimizing external dependencies. Pluto was
sesiquadrate Uranus in Capricorn in the 1st house prompting her to
break free of past emotional, intellectual, physical and spiritual
attachments which were based on past conditioning patterns defined by
man-made patriarchal religions and socities in her past which were
limiting her ability to express her true individuality. Pluto was
semi-square Neptune in Cancer in the 7th House prompting her to
realize the nature of her illusions, delusions, dreams and ideals in
relation to her self-image and relationships with others whom she was
learning to relate to as an equal.
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